A couple nights ago, with one word that I read in a book, I had my breakthrough. If you read a little bit about me, you’d know that I was in the military 12 years and now in the process of reinventing myself. This hasn’t been an easy process. I went straight into the military after college so all I’ve known most of my adult life is the military. I had many WONDERFUL experiences in the military and I would not trade that for anything. However unique the industry of defense is, it is a wonderful opportunity to see places and do things you wouldn’t even dream about. It built in me an amazing self-confidence and developed the ‘I-can-do-anything’ attitude needed to get through life. But, it was within the confines of the military and with the indescribable camaraderie that can only be understood if you are related to military in anyway. With all that amazing stuff came a sobering realization, my identity was tied to the military that meant that when the military was no longer a part of me, I didn’t know who I was.
I dealt with a mental and emotional fatigue and for the first few months after I left, I didn’t want to do anything because I didn’t know what to do. All I knew was that I wanted to be home with my children. It was for that reason I choose direct sales (even though I didn’t have the slightest clue what I wanted). Even through that experience, I wasn’t sure that I was doing the right thing or what my niche was all about and I certainly wasn’t making any money because I still didn’t know who I was or what I really wanted out of the rest of my life. But then the other day happened, a door opened and a wave of light shone through my dark place.
I just wanted to give you a little smattering of what was going on in my brain just want to encourage you all and tell you that giving up IS NOT AN OPTION. I know you have a choice in the matter but let me just encourage you to keep going, no matter how frustrating, no matter how tiring, no matter how lonely, no matter (fill in the blank). You’ve got to know that you know that you know that you are a fighter and this will not defeat you because that phrase ‘no matter…’ can be so positive as well. You’ve got to have a ‘no matter what’ attitude, a spirit of ‘no matter what it takes, i’ll keep going.’ You’ve got to know deep down, right in the middle of your gut, that God has you right where you are at the appointed time (in spite and despite of all the resistance and noise that is going on in your mind and physically in front of you).
Just STAND STILL and see the salvation of the Lord. In some cases it may be that you keep doing what it is you are doing and in others it may be to just trust your decision to do something different. Whatever it is, there may be unclarity, just be excellent and unwavering in your faith in God, “knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.” (James 1:3-4) All it takes is less than a split second for God to shine light in your place of darkness and you are suddenly free to walk in what he had already predestined for you. You are now free to be the light that so many other people have been looking for.